It was a summer of anticipation. Last spring, I felt the calling to be a children’s leader for a Bible study on Revelation. I didn’t know who my co-leader would be or which age group I would be leading. However, there was one thing I knew for sure. My co-leader would be a singer and a good one. I knew this to be true because that is how I prayed all summer for my unknown co-leader. My prayers were specific, bold, and unwavering.
This was important to me for one reason: I am not a singer. I am not being humble when I say that. My lack of singing talent is well-known in my family. As brand-new parents, my husband jokingly warned me not to sing to our baby boy because I would teach him the wrong tunes. (I don’t think my husband was kidding, but I still sang!)
I needed a co-leader that could sing well. She would carry me, back me up, and hopefully, a little bit of her talent would rub off on me. I expressed all this to God through prayer to make sure we had the issue covered.
In September, I met my co-leader. I quickly moved on from the introductions to the burning question on my mind. You know what that question was! Imagine my surprise when she replied that she was not a singer. I have to admit that I was taken aback. How did God and I get our wires crossed? This didn’t make sense to me.
Through more prayer, my initial surprise turned into expectation. God must have something better in mind. Clues to that something better were evident in our first class with fourteen 13-to-20-month-olds. It was a rough start with many tears (not mine, but the children’s) as the little ones said goodbye to their moms. Regardless, we witnessed God’s hand of protection on our teaching times as the tears stopped long enough for us to share the Bible story and sing hymns.
I was the one leading worship with my untrained and out-of-tune voice. The kids responded despite my lack of singing talent. The music even seemed to comfort our young students. My first lesson as a newly-minted teacher was that worship is not about me. Worshipping God through music is about our heart preparation and focus on Him with singing talent as optional.
As the year has progressed, that lesson has become blessings. My confidence has grown as I overcame the self-consciousness of my own singing. I have even caught myself spontaneously singing the children’s hymns throughout the week. Worship through singing out loud and a cappella is now integrated into my daily routine!
I was focused on my singing while God was focused on my worship. I dwelled on my lack while God revealed more of Himself. I had one thing in mind, but God always has something better in mind!
Speak to one another with psalms, hymns and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord,
From the lips of children and infants you have ordained praise because of your enemies, to silence the foe and the avenger.